Tired of Tolkien

[Eruwen]

This is a sad yet true topic dealing with myself...and the horrors I never though would appear.

A while back, not sure if anyone remembers, there was a topic in this section of the Downs called Sacrifice for Tolkien. I wrote a reply to it saying the following:

I have been called so many names because of my obsession. I even told some people that I was trying to get out of LOTR just to keep some of my friends. I'm not, really. I guess I'm just deciding to keep my obsessiveness at home and on a down-low at school.

I mean, I don't mind being criticized for it. I was criticized for things even before my obsession began. I guess I just want to keep the friends I have and not sacrifice them for my obsession. I'll just have to not talk about it for about 8 hours.

I would just like to state the fact at how stupid this idea was. Now that I have not been talking about LOTR much at school, and I've been waiting until I get home to begin my "obsession time", if you would call it that, I have found myself to lost interest in the things I used to prize...like the books.

I don't know how I got to being like this, but now I don't even get on the Downs as much as I did. I used to get on the Downs up to 3 times a day just to learn more about Tolkien and LOTR. I had to cut down on how often a day I came however due to the fact that it slowed down the server for the site, but I still got on almost every day. I made time for it. But now...it's sad. Yesterday was the first time I had gotten on in 5 days!! I had never been off the computer for that length of time before. In my mind has now grown a though of "Oh, I don't care. It's not worth it. I'll get on tomorrow."

Let me also state the fact at how dangerous it is for obsessive fans to get this idea in their mind. For it is because of this thought that I have not gotten on lately. Has this trauma happened to anyone else? If so or even if it hasn't, how do I gain my love for LOTR back again? I miss it more than anything for it was the very thing that made my life happy.