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05-22-2009, 09:29 AM | #1 |
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Time to come clean
I hate to drop this bombshell right now, I don't expect anyone to understand it, I still don't really know why I did it. I realize now I need to after hurting several people I've grown to care about.
I am Kent2010. The pictures on the photo page I recently put up, that is me. The photos of the cocher spaniel, that I posted as Boromir88, that is my little puppy. Everything I said over the years, about what has recently happened to my father, that is true. Everything I have said about where I supposedly worked, those were my father's jobs. I did work for him at Phantom fireworks, but when he quit, so did I. Being a Michigan fan who lives in Ohio, because his dad is from Michigan, that is true too. Everything I have shared with all of you happened to, or effected someone I knew. The personal stories I have shared, it is all true. I don't why you would believe me now, after all these years, but I swear it. What I have lied about, and deceived was my actual age. I don't know why I decided to morph my life with my dad's and appear older, because usually people want to be younger. It started out because I was really young, worried about why my parents said about chatting with people over the internet, but still wanted to get on and talk about LOTR. So, I created this Boromir88 screen name. I wasn't expecting to make the connections I have over the years, I just wanted to talk LOTR. The fact that I became very close to many of you, and that I was lying about my age was tearing me up. My ultimate plan was to Make Boromir88 disappear completely, and insert Kent2010, because I wasn't going to be able to keep up the facade. I didn't think it would matter, even though as Boromir I made some really amazing friendships. I figured I could just weed Boromir out and be Kent, to stop the act. Eventhough I have created these split names, everything you know about Boromir88, is true, everything is real. They either personally happened to me, my father, or effected one of my friends/family members. That is me and that is my personality. It was tearing me up, but once I found out that it hurt the people I care deeply about, because it looks like a massive lie for 4-5 years now, it is too much. Admins, whatever you want to do it is your choice, I will accept any consequences for the deceipt I have caused. I would like to continue to come here as Kent2010, as who I am. But if you have to ban me than do it and it will be deserved. 'Downers, I am sorry for the years of lies, words can not express it. This isn't for self-pity, you should all be angry at me and rightfully, I've kept this fake act for too long. I want you to know that despite the act, you all have come to mean so much to me, and it was all real. To see the pain that I have caused is indescribable, and if you want me to leave I will understand. John Senior at Kent St. History Ed. Major
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05-22-2009, 09:56 AM | #2 | |
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I care not that you are one or two people with one or two nicks, but just want to add this from here:
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Anyway, glad to have you here, whomever you are.
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05-22-2009, 10:17 AM | #3 |
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Wow.
Well that comes as a little shock. Not that you did it but that you got so far with it. Anyway I just want to tell that at least to me it really doesn't matter, and I wouldn't like you to leave. You've contributed so much to the forum and made this such an enjoyable place that a few facts here and there don't make a big difference. But grrr! I hope you didn't lure me to say anything nasty about Boro while I was PMing with Kent a while ago!
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05-22-2009, 10:18 AM | #4 |
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I'm really the Barrow-wight's alter ego. Let's keep that hush hush now though.
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05-22-2009, 10:23 AM | #5 | |
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I'm also Mister Underhill, the Saucepan Man and Esty. I did spend some time as Frodo495995, but gave it up. But, seriously, Boroman, Kentishman, Borokent?... The only think that has me is... are the photos I used in my paper the REAL you? I wouldn't want to be slandering someone I don't know. THAT would be silly. Now, can I get a quote from you on this? Something along the lines of "And I would have gotten away with it too if it weren't for you meddling kids!"? We're all happy to welcome you, no matter what name you chose to go under.
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05-22-2009, 10:24 AM | #6 |
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I did wonder how come Kent was so shrewd at WW...
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05-22-2009, 10:25 AM | #7 |
Doubting Dwimmerlaik
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I assume that the next addition of the newspaper will exploit...er, I mean, explore this revelation to death.
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05-22-2009, 10:39 AM | #8 | |
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Coming back to the matter in hand. I'm not sure what made you think The Downs wasn't a place for younger people? I mean, I was a brainless teenager when I started on the Downs. But no one was very cruel to me, despite my silliness. So... Meh, maybe I'm missing something...
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05-22-2009, 10:44 AM | #9 |
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Well, I can only join the line of shocked people, but I guess that is just natural. In either case, I can imagine it must have been really bad when it got so far and you could not get back so easily. But now that you came out, I guess you have passed the problem. And it seems fine.
In any case, I don't know Kent that well, but I have seen Boro posting a lot, and I respected him for his wise posting. So, under whichever identity, I hope that this posting will continue P.S. And to add one curiosity - when I saw the thread title, I started to expect something like that, but in fact, my first thought was that the revelation would be that you are a woman.
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05-22-2009, 10:50 AM | #10 |
Laconic Loreman
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Sorry Hookbill, the guy on the photo page was a random google image I found after typing in "man dressed as Boromir."
I thank you all for your words and wishes to let me stay, but please scold me, call me foolish or something, because the truth is if I didn't find out that I was caught, and upset some friends who have been there for me, I would not have said this. I would request though that one of the accounts be deleted, preferably this one. Is that something for the admins, or can we delete our own accounts?
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05-22-2009, 10:19 AM | #11 |
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I don't know you well, Boro / Kent, but I've much enjoyed interacting with you as both. As someone who has always physically given the impression of being much younger than I am, I can somewhat empathize.
However, here at the Downs, I've never doubted there are younger members here who can run rings around me with their general wealth of Tolkien knowledge (and ruthless skullduggery at WW ). I suppose all I have left to say is that I believe any fears you may have had about people not taking you seriously because of youth were completely groundless. Your posts speak for themselves.
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05-22-2009, 01:58 PM | #12 |
Laconic Loreman
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Alright...so I managed to reactivate and I have requested to join the facebook group. Now I swear that little blue man as my profile picture that says "the one you can depend on," that was something a friend did for me, and has been up for months. I didn't just stick that up there 5 seconds ago.
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05-22-2009, 02:01 PM | #13 |
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*just imagines how shocked Form will be if he checks Facebook before the Downs*
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05-22-2009, 03:28 PM | #14 |
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I think I have to go check my tea and see if it was spiked. I'll be back later.
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05-22-2009, 04:22 PM | #15 |
Shade of Carn Dûm
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For what it's worth, I think a certain amount of deception and anonymity on the 'net is merely prudent. It's really just a kind of firewall, a smart move usually.
I also just now discovered there was a Barrow Downs group on Facebook. I put in my request to join as well . . . p.s.--my alter-ego here is "ainur" though I can't remember his password. That's how radagastly came to be.
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05-22-2009, 04:39 PM | #16 |
La Belle Dame sans Merci
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It appears that others forgive blatant deception pretty easily.
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05-22-2009, 04:56 PM | #17 |
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Dear Boro/Kent,
although I don't know either of you really well, I'd like to say that I know exactly how you felt when you started this thread. About fifteen years ago, I did something very similar (lying to all of my friends over a couple of years) in RL - a very difficult period in my life that I'm anything but proud of in retrospect, and I remember every bit of it. Feeling like a piece of **** all the time. The need to avoid certain subjects in conversation so as not to entangle myself in more and more lies. How hard it was to work up the courage to tell the truth - first to one person, then to another, then to another (it got easier with the time). And the joyous surprise when almost all of them forgave me, said it was good to have the real me back, and helped me to deal with the bigger problems I was facing at the time (and which had driven me to lying in the first place). From my perspective, what you have done is comparably harmless - but I congratulate you on the courage of coming out; and I'm glad you seem to be getting much the same kind of response I got. (A marvelous bunch of people, these Downers!) Anyway, I've enjoyed reading your posts under either name, and I hope to read more in the future!
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05-22-2009, 05:13 PM | #18 |
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I understand to some extent where you are coming from.
When I first got introduced to the internet, I was twelve or thirteen - and one of the conditions my parents gave me, was to not reveal any type of personal information about myself. Otherwise they would look over my shoulder, or check everything I did - to make sure I wasn't mixing with nefarious people. It became a hassle so I just figured it would be easier to wait a few years. I'm quite as shocked as other people. As I had no clue. It doesn't mean I take back my actions from that game though. Nope! I do agree though, keeping the name Boro would be much easier to deal with than Kent. As I still see them as separate people. Though, whatever you choose! xD
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